I HATE my existance...

[skin_mechanic]

...I'm posting this kinda drunk so if it don't make sense, we'll call it DADA. I've been thinking about throwing in the towel with regards to art. <b>ALL</b> of Terry's family is living under this roof. If I had known I would be marrying his entire family I woulda told him to [Oops!] off. I HATE this stinking hellhole, I HATE that I don't have room to do my art, I HATE that I have NO privacy. If I had a place to move to, I would take my cats and get the hell out of here tonight!! Nevermind that the housing market is in the toilet, and gas is like liquid gold, I'm selling jewelry thru a local shop and I have a commission that will net me some money when completed. I have no space, I have no privacy. I'm misanthropic by nature, and children get on my LAST nerve, so it's to be expected that these close quarters are driving me crazy, especially when the younger brother's 2 hellraising brats are here. I've talked about this with Terry, and he assures me that the brothers are on their way out, but I don't want ANYBODY here but me, Harpo, Waldo, and Lulu. I hate my life.

Sincerely,

Made My Bed, And Wallowing In It=8^(

[z3bigdaddy]

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[lpcapital]

...sorry to hear your story :-((((... really...
I've been married for vary short time, and some family events on my sweetheart side had me almost thorw the spunge: "F it, I'll take a damn plane, go back to Italy, and catch me if you can"... But I'm still here, next to her and I realized that the "what doesn't break you makes you stronger" applies to relationships... Wish you the best...

Btw: "his entire fiamly", "he assures me"... I though SM was a guy... Stereotipes are a biatc...
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1998 Z3 1.9 (my baby)
2003 Z4 2.5i (my babe's baby)

[skin_mechanic]

...I'm a guy, but the confusion is understandable, it's not often that you'll see a homo that loves cars=8^D I'm the only one that I know of, that's the mindset of growing up without any homo friends. I can't even carry on a conversation with the typical purse-tossing-limp-wristed-drama-queen, no common frame of reference. Anywho, yeah, that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger. I'm financially tied to this place, the house is in both our names, and we also have combined debts. I daydream of a store front with a gallery, studio, and small apartment in the back. It would be a lot less insane if I had seperate place that I created art in.

[lpcapital]

...some cognitive mechanism we have are just so F up it's not even funny...
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1998 Z3 1.9 (my baby)
2003 Z4 2.5i (my babe's baby)

[skin_mechanic]

...the straight majority sees Homos, en masse, in public(pride days)the homos are dressed and behaving in stereotypical ways, drag queens, leather queens, and flannel-wearing-wallet-toting-bull-dikes, it would be nice to see more ordinary people, like Harvey Milk. Why the hell a minority wants to reinforce such asinine stereotypes is beyond me. I will not allow the sum total of my existance to be reduced to a stereotype, I am not a label. Of course every homo I have met, so far, has been so shallow that it could be that the stereotypes are their actual core identity=8^O Maybe society has brainwashed them into believing that it's how they're supposed to be.

[lpcapital]

...Chevy keeps making its performance cars using pushrods, BMW builds an NA engine with a torque curve of an FI.

This to say that it's probably easier living your life doing what you're expected to, the same way it was done before, on and on and on… But I would think that at the end once you turn back you'll be disappointed (as opposed to “Wohhh, we made it… Now let’s remove the throttle and see if we can make it work…”).
Why is it easier? Cause you have something other than yourself to blame for your failure.

Keep on rocking in the free world, my friend!!! And open your gallery so I can come and see your art!!! :-))))

PS: make sure you get a big enough room for your Z3, cuz that's a masterpiece... ehehe!!!
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2003 Z4 2.5i (my babe's baby)

[CaliJeff]

it could be your family.

Maybe this craziness will enrich your art at some point.


Let all things color your world.

Jeff

[skin_mechanic]

...My siblings are hardcore Jesus freaks, Church of God, speaking in tongues, laying on of hands, yada, yada... I would send them to the homeless mission before I even thought about letting them live in my house. It's bad enough that I have to put up with them during the holidays. I utterly despise prosyletizing, I don't do it to other people, and I sure as hell don't want others doing it to me, especially family. If you're ever in need of a close family bond, I'll be more than happy to let you have mine, I'll even pay for shipping=8^D

[.....ZEEEEYA]

All I can do is empathize. I don't have art to create but I do need *my* space and multitudes of humans, especially short ones, are not on my list of roommates..... Is it time to draw a line in the sand?

[kniffin50]

Hang in there man, it's got to get better.I hate kids to. specially screamin ankle biters.I'm sure your shop will happen,your a very talented person,twisted but talented :+).
Rusty

[skin_mechanic]

...I offered my equipment to a fellow potter, who has a studio in town. She wants me to move the equipment to her shop and will give me a key to the place. We had talked about starting an artist co-op there, and this would be a good reason to start it. I dunno though, the shop is almost 20 miles from home, I'd be gassing up all the time. The younger brother is supposed to be moving out tomorrow... I'll believe it when I see it. The older brother is straddling the fence. I would just throw his šhit out in the yard, but Terry has no spine, and prefers gentle nudges... wadda puššy=8^(

[kniffin50]

Your friend is offering a helping hand with the shop,I learned a long time ago,nothing good comes easy.An artist co-op. Perfect!Spread those wings and fly man.The inlaws,well theres always kitty litter in the bed trick!
Rusty

[Skin Mechanic]

...while I was at work, and the sticky-fingered bastard took my Rowenta professional steam iron, and ironing board. I put up with alotta crap around here, but there's no way in hell I'm gonna let a piece of $hit steal from me, after I let him live in my house. He left his computer, which is now locked in the trunk of my car(collateral). The other brother has until 10/1/08 to get the hell outta MY house. If he isn't out by then I'm gonna pack up his $hit and donate it to Hanna Home(charity).

[z3RIFFRAFF]

I had invited guests this summer (they left when scheduled however) and by then end of my parent's visit, my wife was getting buggy about having people in the house.

It is tough to have guests and even tougher when you didn't invite them. I hope that you get your stuff back. Will the computer get enough on eBay to replace your iron & board?

Good luck!
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[skin_mechanic]

...but he still has the ironing board. The other brother was supposed to move out this week, but with their mother in the hospital, I'm sure that plan has been put on hold. I think it's about time I started another blog, one specifically designed to vent my misanthropic fury, and spare you guys the monotony of my constant rants.